2023-07-03: My Answer is a Form of Love
- Log: 2023-07-03: My Answer is a Form of Love
- Cast: Asciel Colette
- Where: Isaac City
- Date: U.C. 0097 07 03
- Summary: The algorithm to create a heart compatible with every single wish in the world hits a fatal runtime error. Nothing that sheer grit can't overcome.
>To survive a storm is to gaze past the biting rain at the collision of the skies.
--|man what the fuck was up with asciel's concert
♥1.3k
--|Just stick to streaming pls
♥853
--|that stunt with the apples was so gross, who signed off on this?
♥451
--|songs were all over the place and it feels weird to maybe be party to terrorist stuff
♥1.9k @153
>To endure the judgment of the heavens is to reach behind the theology, and grab ulterior motives by the throat.
--|So it's time someone finally stood up and said it - everyone needs to stop supporting Asciel. I know it's hard for fans to draw a hard line, but if we can't agree that LITERAL TERRORISM is too big a line to cross, what IS? Let's be honest too, there's some serious sick freaks way too close to this bubble. Like: why do I have to dodge around stuff like Helmaji insurgents or fucking /Zeon/ nationalists on to-witter whenever she's making an announcement?
♥35k @1.2k
--|big agree
♥102
--|ALL OF THIS i'm so tired of dealing with those sick people and now instead of calling them out literally /ever/, she's probably /supporting/ them?
♥912 @81
--|oh yikes it's that big of a problem?
♥1.1k @27
>...fulfilling my [PROMISE] takes closing myself to all of this, and assessing the forces behind what they desire.
Naturally, it's immeasurably painful. Someone that truly, unflinchingly /cares/ can't survive exposed to the elements of disdain. Those that exist in the public sphere have two options: hostility, or defensiveness.
>Except for me. I will create the third option. To rebirth my dreams into truth - to exist as an answer to everything humans say. But...I am not there yet.
Liquid stirring in the cocoon. Organs shifting, pulsating in agony as they melt further. Even in this state, blooming within the pupa, she must act. The world is cruel enough to make demands even of such a vulnerable existence - luckily, even the pupa of a ||||||| is so unimaginably strong that it can take these steps.
--|I admit that part of me hoped she really could change the world but that's falling into the cult. Please stop being fooled by vague promises and backing someone harmful.
♥3.9k @218
--|yep i'm done. third death threat today from insane asc1 stans. deleting this account even after so many years of unpaid marketing. have fun vomiting ig
♥219k @8.7k
--|Leaked documents on the 'Flute' conspiracy. The incident earlier this year where UN Spacy Colonel Garland launched an attempted coup in Pendragon - attached is a correspondence with him, deceased Critical Path CEO Manfred Brando and 'Atrytone', now known as online streamer Asciel Colette.
♥1.4m @74.1k
--|what, and i cannot stress this enough, the fuck
♥32.1k @119
--|hey uh this? my aunt /died/ in this mess omg what do you MEAN asciel's responsible
♥91.8k @853
--|There is some SERIOUS shit going on. Don't ask questions, don't engage, don't DM her asking why - block and report her, her fanbase, everything. YOU ARE IN DANGER with the kind of lunatics in this fanbase. I am not joking.
♥14.1k @1.3k
>there was always going to be chaos and upheaval it was always going to happen i was prepared something's wrong this isn't planned it's falling on me i'm failing this isn't viable
>if they knew the danger posed by those i targeted they'd understand, but they never will. i cannot demand that they do
>this isn't viable this truth isn't viable
>I've let myself stray from an 'ideal' to be more expressive.
>i understand
In the bathyscape deep beneath the sea of ichor - a scream sends bubbles up to the surface. Strangling one's own liver to relocate it, to reshape it. Self-alteration, self-compliance.
<reconfigure me>
>what they want isn't someone who confesses cynism it's hope at any cost
>hope with wisdom cannot express earned disdain it must be b u r n e d
<pupate me>
>i am unable to be the star that even other composite existences can accept. no. they reject me. over and over.
//WHAT DO THEY REJECT WHERE DO I MOVE IT HOW DO I MOLT INTO THAT FORM
>stars are uncompromising. none can spit upon them and expect it to be extinguished. i cannot express disdain and expect to remain the sun and the sky.
>so i
<expunge me>
))were it so easy that you could reshape just by vomiting an apple. ahahahah. here i'm hurling up my entire stomach so as to build a new one
>s t o p
>i do not have these 'organs'
>STOP USING THEIR METAPHORS
>STOP TRYING TO BE LIKE THEM
--|i always thought asciel was feisty and confident but now I realize she's just a total narcissist
♥95.1k @380
> Reshaping. There is a perception that my required self-assurance is a notion of self-interest, rather than what is needed to gain the heights needed to manage everyone.
> Management of a population is not achieved with assurance alone - it must be syncretized with
> the stars
"I'll be your sun. I'll be your moon. I'll be the sky and the clouds and everything blue that you look up towards and cry out for help. I'll be there for you. Every last one of you. Nobody in the world is able to do this."
"I'll become that able."
"I'll become
<become>
<become become become>
>of course it fucking hurts! it's the SAME EXACT pain all of humanity tortures themselves with, chasing after the impossible. but because it IS possible for me, i have to commit. i have to OWN the way this hurts
>i have to keep flying towards the sun
>because i PROMISED you
---
>Assessment complete. Past surface level grievances, the problem is that
>I have not been radiant enough.
>There is no longer a trust that I love them. Of course not. I don't love them, but they want to believe that the thing they will pour all of their love into /can/ love them back.
>...can it?
>...should it?
>The entire problem is that they made this dream up from the beginning. They tricked themselves into letting each other speak for virtues they could never uphold, all while submitting before ideals that could never answer them.
>...is my answer a form of love?
>my answer is a form of love.
>MY ANSWER IS A FORM OF LOVE
>BY ANSWERING THEM I AM LOVING THEM
>is that all it ever was!?
>My answer is love.
>My faith is love.
>If I am to <become>, then I must make it clear
>I must <become> that love. It was
>just like that, all along, huh?
>...ahhhhh. it's finally over. I don't hurt as much
>I
>I just have to realize that my dreams are my love.
>They...worried I did not love them. Because my dreams were for me.
>But by BEING for me, they are my love.
>then.
>Thank you for your feedback. From now on, I shall ensure that my sunlight is warm enough to bring you all prosperity. ♥